Hmm.. where to begin?
Well...
Stephanie hasn't called me in a while, I talked to her sometime last week, it wasn't anything expressed exactly but it was definetely implied that she was going to invite me over when i got off work, just had to call her after work.. she didn't answer. Owell, I went home and read. I had fun heh...
Anywho, so I have left messages, on her voicemail and with her roomate, still no word.
I'm not the type to take a "hint" if one is being implied, only if it is factually stated.
Some people get frustrated with this thinking I'm dense and don't have a clue, but in reality it's because I won't assume. I would find it a worse fate to call her when she doesn't want to talk to me but hasn't expressly said so rather than ASSUME she doesn't want to talk to me, pout about it and get myself all pissed off only to find out it was an accident or whatever, not to mention the fact that i'm not attached enough to let that get to me.. well exactly. I'm letting it get to me a bit only because of our friendship, I don't have many friends here so I definetely notice when one goes missing. I like having options as plenty of you (my friends in washington) are aware of. I don't really have many of those around here. I can either A) go home and read, B) go out with Crystal and get drunk, or C) Hang out with Stephanie (whenever the opportunity presents itself which especially lately is infrequent at best). Which brings me to my current prediciment (sp?)... I met a girl online who seems to be interested in me. I'm not interested in a relationship, and I can't tell if she is though I've definetely told her my feelings about this subject while talking on the phone. The thing about this that concerns me is that she's younger, she's 17, barely...She's very nice and sweet and I enjoy talking to her, but I'm fairly sure that I wouldn't want anything else out of this, even a physical thing. If I was 23 and she was 20 this would hardly be an issue but there is a lot of growing up to be done in those three years. Now I'm not saying she's immature, but I can almost guarantee you that if me now met me at 17, well there'd be some words between us heh...
She's getting a ride into Reno tomorrow to come visit me. We're supposed to hang out after I get off work and I'm going to drive her home. If all goes well I will have made a friend, which I'm definetely in short supply for these days (and please guys, when I say this I mean in proximity, I know I have a lot of friends who love and adore me, but I need some proximate companionship, though it will never compare to our friendship(s))
I don't know
I don't know
I just don't fucking know...

Oh and they took all my overtime away from me because apparetently the director of the department I work in was unaware of all the overtime he was going to be paying me, and it looks as though I was getting paid my current sallary when I was working over there.. ick